Father's Day

June 20th, 2010

Well, it's Father's Day and guess where I am? That's right, I'm at work....again. BLECH! And this time, no mom and dad to visit with. They had a busy weekend back home, but that's okay, so far it hasn't been too bad here.

I've been thinking a lot about Danny today! I can't wait for us to have a little one in our lives and see how he adjusts to becoming a dad. I know he's going to be a great father....I don't have any doubts about that! He's been getting more excited about having a baby. He's been talking about it more and he even discussed names with me the other night! We both agreed though that baby will not be named until we see him or her. We have a list of a few boys and girls names we both love and hopefully once we see baby, the name will just fit! I'm so excited for December to hurry up and get here (hmm, never thought I would be saying that I want summer to go by fast and I want winter to be here....yikes!) haha.

Anyway, wishing all of the wonderful dads out there in the world the best Father's Day today. I'm a very lucky girl to have such an amazing dad, an great father-in-law, and a fantastic husband! Love you all.

Little bump

June 15th, 2010

Well, I decided to bite the bullet and finally post a "belly" picture. So there ya have it, my little bump!

According to the doctor, I'm 13 weeks today (however, I'm going to continue with what I've been dating myself because it's so close anyway). The fatigue has gotten a lot better and I haven't been quite as nauseous so that's been great! I'm thinking the maternity clothes may have to come out soon. So far, my regular pants have been doing the job....but I don't know how much longer that will last.

Danny has been talking about the baby more so I think he's finally getting used to the idea that we are going to be bringing a little one home in 6 months. I know he's going to be a great dad and I can't wait to witness the bond he has with our child. I'm so happy and blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life!

My next appointment is July 13th and I can't wait. Until then my schedule is pretty busy. I work this weekend, which I'm not looking forward to. Then I have a 4 day weekend, work 2 days, and have a 5 day weekend over the Fourth of July! We will be going home to celebrate with Danny's classmates...they are having their 10 year reunion so that should be fun (my hubby's getting old!) I'm just excited to go home and see our families and friends!

Still praying every day that our little one remains healthy xoxo

Baby's first picture

Picture taken 6/3/2010 at approximately 11 weeksJune 8th, 2010

Today was my first appointment! I didn't get to meet my doctor because he was on-call and had to go to the hospital for a surgery so I met his nurse practitioner. She was fantastic and was so great to talk to. We talked about what happened with Gabriel and she reassured me that they would be keeping an extra close eye on this baby (even though the odds are VERY low that something like that would happen again).

She did a quick ultrasound of the baby! I got to see baby moving around and also got to see it's little heart beating. What an amazing thing....I'm so in love already! They set me at 12 weeks today and that my due date would be December 22nd. I had calculated my due date as December 23rd....so I was pretty close! :)

Danny unfortunately couldn't make it to the appointment today because he is out of town for work this week. My next appointment is on July 13th and then our big ultrasound is in about 8-10 weeks. I'm hoping he can be around for that.

Happy Birthday Gabriel!

June 3rd, 2010

Today is your 4th heavenly birthday and I miss you so much! I know you are beautiful and perfect and sweet....I wish I could be there to celebrate with you. I'm sending up all of my love and hugs and kisses....I miss you and think of you each and every day!

Happy Birthday Gabriel...I love you little man!

Love, your Mommy!

Everything Can Change in a Heartbeat

June 1st, 2010

Four years ago today, June 1st, was when I found out that Gabriel had left us. I woke up that Thursday morning and headed off to my doctors' appointment. The physicians assistant searched for my baby's heartbeat and couldn't find it. She went to get the doctor. He couldn't find the heartbeat either so I was sent to have an ultrasound. I remember laying on the table, and with tears in her eyes, the ultrasound tech. asked if I wanted a moment to be alone. I've never felt so alone in my entire life. That moment changed my life forever!

Today, baby #2 is 10 weeks and 5 days. Something inside of me said that today was the day I should try out my fetal doppler. Hearing that little one's heartbeat makes me so happy! The sound brings peace, joy and excitement to my own heart. I love this baby already so so much, I can't wait to have our little one in my arms! Funny a simple sound can have such a profound impact.

I love my son and miss him every single day. This day, four years ago, was the most heartbreaking moment of my life. And today, four years later, I love my growing baby and wait in excitement for our little one every day. I can't wait to see what our future has in store for us!