Hard

March 28th, 2012

Well, I haven't wrote a "real" blog post for awhile now and I have some feelings I need to get off my chest. My latest picture topic was a mess and speaking of messes, that's what I feel my head has been lately. Messy! We've been talking about having another baby for some time now and after my doctor gave us the okay, it's been seriously weighing on my mind. I'm ready (as crazy as that may be after our first two pregnancies), I am! Danny is finally on board and it's just not happening. It's only been a few months but every month we're not pregnant is heartbreaking for me. And then on top of that, it seems I hear of new people being pregnant every day, which is great but it makes it even harder on me. I just don't understand why this isn't easier for us...the whooooole baby process. It seems like so many people get pregnant the first time they try and then they go on to have a simple, normal pregnancy and birth. Why can't we have that, just once? Don't we deserve "simplicity" once in awhile? Is there something wrong with us, is there a reason everything has to be so damn hard, is it a sign that we are just supposed to give up on this dream? Blech...