5 weeks!

April 23rd, 2010

It's been 10 days since I found out we're pregnant and I couldn't be happier. I won't deny my extreme paranoia about losing this baby. Every time I go to the bathroom, I pray I don't see any blood. It's probably a little dramatic but I can't help it, there's nothing I want more than this baby!

Just the other day I ordered a fetal doppler machine. I can't wait for it to get here (even though I won't be able to use it for a few weeks). I really hope that it will help me keep my sanity during this pregnancy. I'm so excited to hear our baby's heartbeat. I know it will be an emotional experience.

My first doctor appointment is June 8th. It seems so far off, I hope the time goes by fast. When I talked to the nurse on the phone, I told her about the situation with Gabriel and it sounds like they will be keeping a close watch on me during this pregnancy. I'm glad to hear that this baby will be well taken care of. And being older and wiser, I'm not afraid to ask questions and to be my own advocate this time around.

My biggest obstacle so far, I just need to hold off on my shopping desire. I want to go out and buy baby clothes and gear right now! But I know that I should wait a while longer. I do know that my mom has already been thinking of my big belly though....because she bought me some new scrubs for work. I love my mom!

Okay, that's enough for now....I'm off to go find some breakfast :)

Hallelujah! Praise the Lord :)

Got a BFP on April 13th and then again on the 14th!

Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, oh my gosh!

It's a faint pink line...but it's there! I'm shocked, excited, nervous, overwhelmed, worried, but most of all.......so so very happy and blessed!

I've never been so happy or excited about something in my whole life. I hope and pray that things go well this time around and we will be holding a precious little bundle in 9 months. If my calculations are correct, that means the baby is due Decemeber 23rd, 2010. What an amazing Christmas gift this will be. Please pray that it sticks!

God is Good!

The Waiting Game

April 11th, 2010

It's the final couple of days and I'm so nervous. I just really, really want to see two pink lines! I just don't know much more disappointment I can take. Seems like every day I hear about a new person that is pregnant. I'm happy for them but so jealous. Somedays I just want to hide myself from the rest of the world and not come out until I have a little one in my arms. This world has been way too cruel in the past few years. I think it's about time for us to catch a break!

There's nothing I can do now but pray!

Happy Easter Weekend!

It's Easter weekend! A time to remember the love of our Savior Jesus Christ who died on the cross for our sins. To rejoice in that he rose again from the dead and is in Heaven, waiting there for us with open arms. Easter is the reason we don't have to fear death, because we can know that we are saved and that we will meet our God at the gates of Heaven when our time on earth is over. It's a beautiful time to Praise the Lord!

Unfortunately, I'm spending my Easter weekend alone at work. I wish that I could be at home and spend time with my family but I can't complain, at least I'm making holiday pay! :)

In closing, there is one thing I ask today of anyone who reads this blog. I ask today that you pray for my friend's family. Her baby boy Phineas passed away last night. He was only a few days old. It's a heartbreaking situation and my heart goes out to their family! I know what it's like to experience the loss of a precious son and I wouldn't wish that feeling on my worst enemy. This family is wonderful and they deserve nothing but the best things in life. I'm devastated by this news and will keep their family in my every prayer. If you're reading this, please do the same!

Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit