My little pumpkin is napping so I have a minute to update my blog. It's only been a few weeks since my last update but boy has a lot happened since then! Asher is finally at home with us where he belongs....but it took a little longer than we had expected. He got a fever not once, but twice while in the NICU so they had to do the full work-up on him including blood tests, a lumbar puncture and a week of antibiotics (both times). Needless to say, mommy was a wreck throughout all of it!
The NICU is a funny place. You are so incredibly grateful that they are there to take care of your precious bundle but at the same time, you find yourself hating the place. I spent hours upon hours up in Pod 4 where Asher spent his first month of life. There were a lot of ups and downs....a horrible roller coaster ride I was happy to finally get off. By the end of it, I was just so frustrated by the entire process. It was more than I could handle. Having to leave him there at night was heartbreaking but I knew I had to go home and get some sleep so I would have the energy to do it all over again the next day. My days started to blend into one...the routine of each day was monotonous but there was no way I was spending any day apart from my beautiful little son. I couldn't leave if he was awake. If he was crying, I felt as though it was my job as his mom to stay and calm him, even though I knew it was technically the nurses "job." Exhaustion was always on my door step...but I only let love in. The love I have for Asher kept me going!
Now he is finally home and I couldn't be happier. Every hour I spend awake, calming my little son is worth it. Every snuggle is cherished! I have to say that this pregnancy was trying...a journey that wasn't easy in the slightest. And his birth and NICU stay wasn't exactly ideal but looking at Asher's sweet little face makes every "hard" part go away. He is amazing!
God is good...we are so very blessed!
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