5 weeks!

April 23rd, 2010

It's been 10 days since I found out we're pregnant and I couldn't be happier. I won't deny my extreme paranoia about losing this baby. Every time I go to the bathroom, I pray I don't see any blood. It's probably a little dramatic but I can't help it, there's nothing I want more than this baby!

Just the other day I ordered a fetal doppler machine. I can't wait for it to get here (even though I won't be able to use it for a few weeks). I really hope that it will help me keep my sanity during this pregnancy. I'm so excited to hear our baby's heartbeat. I know it will be an emotional experience.

My first doctor appointment is June 8th. It seems so far off, I hope the time goes by fast. When I talked to the nurse on the phone, I told her about the situation with Gabriel and it sounds like they will be keeping a close watch on me during this pregnancy. I'm glad to hear that this baby will be well taken care of. And being older and wiser, I'm not afraid to ask questions and to be my own advocate this time around.

My biggest obstacle so far, I just need to hold off on my shopping desire. I want to go out and buy baby clothes and gear right now! But I know that I should wait a while longer. I do know that my mom has already been thinking of my big belly though....because she bought me some new scrubs for work. I love my mom!

Okay, that's enough for now....I'm off to go find some breakfast :)